“She’s banged up — mentally and emotionally, literally and metaphorically. But everyday she walks outside with a smile on her face because that’s who she is.”
11th January 2013
The day I tried to reconnect
You who suddenly vanished,
I’ve no idea about your issues the past weeks but you could have at least gave me a hint instead of just disappearing. Thing is, you disappeared so unexpectedly — without a word, without signs, without anything — and it’s not as if I’m not giving a damn now that we stopped talking… again. I just don’t understand any of these, why you keep disappearing on me, and I don’t think you understand either. I don’t think you understand how I badly want to know what’s up. And how I badly want to mend whatever is broken. I’m still waiting, and I miss you more than you could ever imagine.
In my attempt to start the new year right, I basically got rid of all the old, unused stuff — which I can now call “trashes” — to make room for better things. My room has been filled with so many extras that it always looked so crowded and untidy. Today, I threw every unnecessary object away. Soon, I will be blogging about how my room looks like now that I’ve already cleaned it and fixed my stuff.
For now, I wanna show you this photo of my books. Some were just borrowed from good friends though. I compiled them that way while I was cleaning. Anyway, most people aren’t aware that I am into books. I may not look like some kind of a bookworm, but I claim to be one. HAHAHA. Chos lang, di naman ako hardcore bookworm. Slight lang. But my favorite books are Mitch Albom’s Tuesdays with Morrie and For One More Day. I haven’t gotten my own copy of the latter though… hoping to get one soonest! What I like about Mitch Albom’s works is that they tend to touch souls. I don’t know, I always feel like both my heart and soul are reinvigorated once I finish reading his books. It’s like they are very well fed. His stories just inspire me so much!
On the other hand, Sir Eros Atalia’s Ligo Na U, Lapit Na Me and It’s Not That Complicated are my favorites when it comes to Filipino literature. Can I just say na sobrang na-attach talaga ako sa books na ‘to. Intoy’s story is just so intense for my life!!! Oh well, moving on… Sir Eros was my professor for two semesters and I love how he made me realize things through his crazy lectures — he does not do normal lectures and he’s not a typical professor, just sharing. Haha! And up until now, through his works, he makes me grasp realities I usually run away from.
Looking forward to more of their works and can’t wait to encounter and/or discover other good authors, too! <3
I don’t know why I’m not into cardigans even if they could spice up an outfit. I have a few but I don’t usually wear them or consider them part of my ‘fashion,’ unless ginawin ako. I just think it’s quite uncharacteristic of me since I’m that person who wears kulang-sa-tela clothes most of the time, if you know what I mean. Haha! I prefer wearing sleeveless or anything na di tatamaan ang armpits ko… iyakin kasi siya, dyahe naman kung litaw jabar always. :p :p :p :p
But today, I did wear a cardigan. Nasuot ko na siya once or twice, actually… but as far as I can remember, in school nga lang. Ginaw sa room eh. Hahaha!!
(Tank top and footwear: Cotton On; Cardigan: Calvin Klein; High-waisted floral shorts: Heir Clothing; Accessories: Genevieve Gozum and WaxWitch MNL)
Good thing it was a rainy day kaya cold ang weather. Kontra jabar! Lol.